It's amazing how Jayson can still find ways to make me despise him, even when we're not together. I'm emotionally and mentally exhausted because of him. He doesn't even realize the deep emotional burdens he placed on me when we were together. And thanks to him, I'm scarred. I'm scarred and scared of relationships. Why did things have to be this way... I just wanna break free from anything that tied me down in that relationship. I wanna have peace within myself. I'm ready to move on.